Ebony Masochist

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I strive to be honest in my work as it is based on my emotional experiences…but sometimes i just freeze because i feel like im giving the men I write about too much of an ego boost. To appear obsessed is to be obsessed with my work. This is how I gain material. Sometimes i feel ashamed at how honest I am. I was told that I hold my heart out while it’s leaking and scarred for others to see and that it was brave to be so vulnerable. But in all honesty, I feel like I’m giving those that hurt me too much power at times. It’s twisted as they think they are on this pedestal as I allow them to cut me just enough to bleed poetry.